“After losing my Daniel, I’ve come to realize that some losses divide your life into before and after,” I replied.
He took my hand in his. “That’s exactly how I felt.”
That was around the time I started thinking I could love again. I was loving again.
Then I met Linda.
Arthur had invited me to dinner, and she arrived halfway through dessert — tall and neat, with dark hair pinned back and a face like stone.
Arthur stiffened when she entered. That was the first odd thing. He seemed nervous.
Then I met Linda.
“Oh, you have company.” Linda looked me up and down, then tilted her head. “This is the woman you told me about?”
Arthur nodded. “This is Caroline. Caroline, my daughter, Linda.”
“A pleasure to meet you,” Linda said, holding out her hand, but nothing about her suggested she meant the words.
Later, Arthur said, “She’s just protective. It’s been only us for a long time.”
I believed him. Why wouldn’t I?
Nothing about her suggested she meant the words.
There were other moments, too. Small things I ignored because happiness, when it arrives late, feels too precious to challenge.
Once, Arthur and I were having dinner at a restaurant when an older man clapped him on the shoulder.
“Arthur! It’s been, what, 25 years? How have you been?”
Arthur stiffened, and for a moment, I thought I saw fear in his eyes.
Then he smiled and said, “You can’t honestly expect me to sum up 25 years in one sentence?”
The man laughed. “Same old, Arthur.”
There were other moments, too. Small things I ignored.
They chatted for a few minutes, then Arthur called for the check and said we had to leave. We hadn’t even discussed having dessert yet.
In the car, I asked, “Who was that man, and why were you in such a hurry to leave?”
“I wasn’t. I just…” he paused for a long time. “That man is unbearable. That’s why we haven’t spoken in 25 years.”
“He seemed nice enough…”
Arthur didn’t reply, and I let it go.
That is the humiliating part of this story. How much I let go.
“Who was that man, and why were you in such a hurry to leave?”
We’d been dating for a year when he proposed.
He took my hand and said, “I know we don’t have the kind of time younger couples imagine they do. I don’t want to waste what we have. Marry me, Caroline.”
I said yes almost at once, with tears in my eyes.
