Lucas has spent his whole life keeping his head down and his heart guarded, especially when it comes to his grandmother’s job at his high school. But on prom night, a single choice forces him to decide what really matters…ucrm., and who truly deserves to be seen.
I moved in with Grandma Doris when I was three days old. My mother, Lina, had died just after giving birth to me … I’ve never known her, but Gran told me that she’d held me once.
“She did, Lucas,” Gran would say.
“Your mama held you for three minutes before her blood pressure dropped. Those three minutes will hold you for a lifetime, sweetheart.”
As for my father? Well, he never showed up. Not once, not even for a single birthday.
I moved in with Grandma Doris when I was three days old.
Grandma Doris was 52 when she took me in. Since then, she worked nights as a janitor at the high school and made the fluffiest pancakes every Saturday morning. She read secondhand books in an armchair with the stuffing poking out of the seams, doing all the voices, and made the world feel big and possible.
She never once acted like I was a burden.
Not when I had nightmares and woke her up screaming.
She never once acted like I was a burden.
Not when I cut my own hair with her pair of sewing scissors, making my ears look so much bigger. And definitely not when I outgrew my shoes faster than her paycheck could keep up.
To me, she wasn’t just a grandmother. She was a one-woman village.
I think that’s why I never told her about the things people said at school, especially after they found out that my grandmother was the school janitor.
She was a one-woman village.
“Careful, Lucas smells like bleach,” the boys would say, wrinkling their noses.
I didn’t tell Gran about the way they called me “Mop Boy” when they thought I couldn’t hear.
And the way I found milk or orange juice spilled at my locker with a note taped to it:
“Hope you got your bucket, Mop Boy.”
If Gran knew about it, she didn’t say anything to me. And I tried my hardest to keep her away from the nonsense.
“Hope you got your bucket, Mop Boy.”
The thought of her feeling ashamed of her job? That was the one thing I couldn’t bear.
So, I smiled. I acted like it didn’t matter. I came home and did the dishes while she took off her boots, the ones with the cracked soles and my initials carved into the rubber.
“You’re a good boy, Lucas,” she said. “You take good care of me.”
“Because you taught me that this is the only way to be, Gran,” I replied.
The thought of her feeling ashamed of her job?
We ate together in our small kitchen, and I made her laugh on purpose. That was my safe place.
But I’d be lying if I said that the words didn’t get to me. Or that I wasn’t counting down the days until graduation so that I could have a fresh start.
The only thing that made school feel bearable was Sasha.
But I’d be lying if I said that the words didn’t get to me.
She was smart and confident, and funny in this dry, sideways kind of way. People thought she was just pretty — and she was, in that way where it didn’t look like she tried — but they didn’t know she spent weekends helping her mom around the house and balancing tip money in a yellow notepad.
Her mother was a nurse who worked double shifts and didn’t always eat. They had one unreliable car, which made them use the bus more often than not.
“She says cafeteria muffins are better than hospital vending machines,” Sasha had said, laughing without quite smiling.
“Which should tell you something about the vending machines.”
